my story, my life

Salam jumaat utk smua kengkawan walau dimana jua anda berada. Semoga anda berbahgia selalu walaupun aku skarang tak bahgia. Semoga smua kengkawan berada dlm keadaan sihat sejahtera walaupun ari nih aku rasa tak berape sihat dan tak berape sejahtera. Apa nak jd ngan aku ni? What's going to happen? Where it's going after this? I surely don't know and i can't think. I used to be happy. I used to be full of spirit and determination. I used to know where i am during this time next year. I know that i can be a good husband, a good friend and confidant. So, where has it gone wrong? What have i done? I'm ashamed. I love her so much. I will always love her. Once i promised her that. I still hold that promise firmly in my heart. I've told her that if i don't take her as my wife, i will not take anybody. I thought i have done enough but maybe below expectation. I don't know. I'm sad. Will i be able to look back and feel needed again? Will i be able to look back and laugh with her thinking how silly we have been. I really don't know. Maybe time will tell. But for what it's worth i enjoy our journey together and i will mark it as the best thing that has happen in my life. Thanks sayang.